KEY 3: How To Manifest: Letting Go of Attachment To Outcome: Do Everything You Can On The Earth Plane And Heaven Plane, Then Let Go!

Key number three focuses on letting go of attachments to the outcome. It discusses the way in which we must do everything we can on the earth plane to achieve our goals: the physical steps to getting their as well as putting in the time and energy to pray and meditate and ask for what we need, and then to let go of our ideas about what we think should happen.

The third key for me really brings up this idea of brain versus spirit. What happens when we really think we know what we need, what we want, what we consider to be the perfect outcome, and that idea is simply, at least currently, wrong? Sometimes I am so good at convincing myself (or my fear is so great at convincing myself) that I know what I need and what I want, that I could tell you with certainty, “nope, this isn’t coming from a fear place; nope, I am working towards exactly what I should be working towards.” And sometimes, later on, I find out, wow...how silly of me, I really had myself going there for a little while.

For the longest time, I have told myself that all I really need to be happy is to just live on a farm, where I can work for my food and my board, and not have to worry about money, or the world, and just be with plants and the sun and the earth. And when I haven’t been doing that, I have been wondering, why can’t I just go for it and go find a farm? Why am I putting this off? And why do I have college loans and other silly bills to pay for that won’t allow me to just go do something that won’t make me any money? Why why why isn’t this working?

Drumroll...key three explains how sometimes, we can do everything we can to get to a destination, and it’s not happening. And when it’s not happening, this is a MEMO - it’s not time for that. You think that’s what you want, but it’s not right for this moment. MEMO. NO FARM. Not right now. Other things are on your plate.

When I look back on this thought process now, a week and a half later, it is so clear to me how much of this farm idea is grounded in fear. Don’t get me wrong. I really do want to go live on a farm. One day. But now is not the time. And back to that fear thing. What is my cryptonite so to speak in this current life time? The thing that terrifies me more than anything? Money. Bills. Paying rent. Surviving. Being able to be a successful theater person in a world that doesn’t really reward experimental theater directors with tons of riches. How should deal with this fear? RUN AWAY! I say this with love for myself. It’s actually kind of funny. It seemed so true, so certain, that farming was what I wanted to do be doing right now. But when I put all the pieces in motion, and the farm thing was just feeling impossible, I began to see, that perhaps it is because, the farm thing, is just the outcome I was attached to. Money-free bliss. “Utopia.”

So now I can check in a little detached from what I think sounds like it would be best, and really feel what my soul wants. And it’s actually something really different, involving the city and my theater and taking control of my finances! Boo-yah. The fear and my brain’s idea of what would be best were running the show. They were scaring me away from what was truly calling me in my bones.

So my lesson that I got from key number three is just that sometimes we have to take a step away from the way we can logic ourselves into things through fear or through that word I love so much, “Should”, in order to hear the messages the universe is trying to send us. No answer is an answer. If it’s not working out despite all of our efforts, maybe there is a reason. Maybe we need to check in with ourselves about whether or not what we are working towards so much is just an idea our brain or our “human” as Jodi says, has in mind for us.